I wish I could say something useful vjamal, something to help you. We are all in the same dark pit here in a different way.
I feel angry and disappointed with myself. I practiced the testimony yesterday with my legal counsel for more than 3 hours and it went so fine. Today we practiced for more than 2 hours and I was lousy at answering the questions. I did not use the right words, sometimes I could not find the right wording, sometimes I gave wrong answers and sometimes I had blanks. English is not my first language! Besides, we have a long history of 4 years with many challenges and so much history! It is hard to remember all the details. I woke up this morning screaming (bad dreams) and my throat hurts as my immune system is getting low. I am getting more and more edgy as I see the clock ticking... 10 days left.