OH MY GOD! This is ridiculous! I don't even know how to react to this now. Between elections incidents and this 29 months rule...it feels like everything is going against the best things nowadays. I feel like crying...naya Pakistan bhi nahin mila aur upar se 1 month on top of the 28 months until my husband can be with me in a safe and sound environment where I don't have to worry about halaat being bad or his safety...I feel so helpless. I always tell people that, you know, we're all in this together, but for some reason, I feel extremely alone even after knowing that so many others are in the same situation as me, WHY IS THIS HAPPENING?!!??! I've run out of excuses that I make to myself to tell myself that everything will be alright. I was on Youtube the other day, watching videos about soldiers being reunited with their loved ones after they come back from a war, some after 6 months of being away from each other, some after 1 year, and I've seen so many talk shows where hosts reunite families like these. I was sitting there thinking...these families knew what they were getting into and that they were going to be away from each other where the soldier would be on the battleground for this many days where anything can happen and I respect them for doing what they do. BUT I DID NOT SIGN UP FOR THIS! I did not sign up for being apart from my husband for 29 MONTHS, I did not sign up for him to be in a place where there is increasingly more violence and his safety is at risk. When I got married, it was not this bad, it was not a battleground then...but now it seems that each and everyday, people there are just praying and hoping that they dodge the bullet today.
May Allah have mercy on us and I urge you all to pray to Allah to have mercy on all people in Pakistan and for peace in our beloved country. I have closed my eyes right now, not because I don't care, but because I can't watch. InshaAllah, I would like nothing more than to reopen my eyes to a peaceful Pakistan one day, where I can take my kids to and raise them there, have them experience the Pakistan that I knew growing up. Once this happens, timelines, sponsorships, all this will become a breeze and the future generations will be fretting on smaller things like the weight of their luggage and the time of arrival of their spouse...not crying over being separated from each other for over 2 years. That's what I want to see.
I'm sorry for ranting, I had to get it out of my system, I'd burst into tears saying all this to anyone in person, so I feel this is the best outlet for me.
