As I said I was really sad in the beginning then later I understood I saved myself from a bigger heart ache
I have tolerated a lot of things about her ,I gave her free passes ,she had a major medical condition, I have not even asked her about it.
When I had a minor issue and the dr says under no fucking circumstances you will have an issue. She has a problem. (She is a rn).I have the condition but as I am an adult I am fine.
It was not about that when I look back I think it is mainly because of my loss of job, visa expiration, uncertainty of Canada pr .....why should she do that?Honestly I think she never loved me at all .
My mom gave me an important lesson
"Kiddo life is a journey in a bus where you will meet a lot of people and they will leave when their stop reaches. "
Honestly I am not mad at her or anything, She didn't have the or she didn't want to have the risk appetite I had for her.My parents are really sad but I think it happened for a reason.
10 years down the road if this happened after the marriage from the way she behaved I am sure she would have cheated on me.It is better than that.It is better to be alone than being with the wrong person.