Hello Friend,
I totally understand what you are feeling. I have been in the same situation, constantly checking tracker many times a day, and it really does start to feel like an addiction. But I’ve been doing a bit better lately, mostly because I realized that worrying about it doesn’t change anything. None of us know when the process will end, and there’s nothing we can do to speed up the process.
It helped me is reminding myself of that whenever I feel the urge to check. Little by little, it’s gotten easier. I still slip sometimes, but the pressure isn’t as heavy as before.
Please remember! You are definitely not alone in this, thousands out there in the same situation. It is possible to get some peace of mind. Be easy on yourself! We will get through this! The good thing is that the time never stops.... sending you prayers. Good luck!