Hahaha. I am not you and you are not me,dear.. Hold on to what you believe and I will hold mine!!
I don't know your situation that make you believe what you believe,so I can't comment on that but you don't know my circumstances so you don't know why the reason why I believe what I believe so I am sorry I won't take your suggestion.
I'm too blessed to be stressed. I have been given life chances 2 times that if I forced myself to be where I'm not suppossed to be, I may not be here and alive right now. I will tell you why, in 2010, in my hometown in Indonesia, I was suppose to be on the bike ride with my cousin to attend my other maternal cousin's wedding reception. When we were about to leave my home, heavy rain fell all of a sudden. So,we had to delayed our journey. It kept raining for half an hour and my cousin had to leave because his band (he's guitarist) would be performing at the wedding reception so they needed him for setting up and warming up lil bit. Unfortunately, I didn't have a raincoat and had to stay behind and got a car ride from other relatives and my poor cousin didn't make it there. He had accident and died on the way to hospital. Second time I was really lucky was last October. I was suppose to be on Lion Air flight from Jakarta - Pangkal Pinang but I couldn't book the flight because for some reason, my card kept declining the transaction. I even called up my bank because I thought that they lock the international transaction again as I tried to complete the booking few time and it might trigger the unathorised international transaction attempts(I was using Australian bank card) the customer care said no, they didn't lock my card as I was still in the holiday period and as I inform them about my travel, they won't get security warning. I was frustated bcos that flight was the cheapest and there was only 2 seats left. I had to call sister but she didn't pick up my call as she was working that time. So, I desparately called my mom and asked her to book that flight for me using her card but she couldn't find the flight detail as it must be fully booked. That flight crushed and killed all passengers and crews. Had I been on the bike ride with my cousin or that flight. I wouldn't be here right now. So,yeah... I really believe everything happen for a reason and I am where I suppose to be and I don't want to rush things or force to be somewhere where I am not suppose to be at the moment. Everything will be fine in time.
(today is my birthday I was at 449).