I'm in my mid 30's and never been married before
So you're still in a better position than I am. Time is on your side. But i do understand how you feel. It is tough ...
Bro I am 23 and looks like 40. When my friends tell me how I live with a big beard and spunky hair I hate it. There is not even a single day when I don't cry to Allah and than I cry to my wife but Alhamdullilah my wife has so much patience and sabar and telling me one day things will work out. It's my first wedding and it's been 5 months since the file transferred but it feels like years have been past since I saw her. Therefore I stop my school and i am going to live with my wife till I hear something from CHC Islamabad or TCS guy knock my door.
It's getting streeful and depressed. I never love someone in my life and this is my first love but man it's so hard to live apart. But than I hope that one day things will be on the way inshAllah.
Jason kenny may Allah make you suffer the way you suffered us.